finding my pimp

going to the recruiter tomorrow because i need a professional introduction. powerful, successful organizations have the power using money to buy professional talent. i dont care if i have to sign up with some sort of professional pimp who's going to match me with the best john there is -- it's just another way of professional networking. yea, if a company is going to spend their own time and resources for new hires, they're not going to have that much money to pay you [you = me]. organizations that can contract out do so because they have the money to do it -- and to pay me.

this is what i need to tell myself in order to muster the dignity to walk into a temp agency because doing so feels so shameful! shameful! shameful!